So Close Yet So Far

 

 

Her parents were quarreling,

As all other nights.

She wanted to get far

Away from these fights.

Her mind filled with thoughts,

A drunk-driven car,

And now here she lies,

So close, yet so far.

 

Her mother and father

Were drowning in hate.

For helping her family

It just was too late.

Her mind was invaded

With pain from passed years.

Her clothing was soaking

In handfuls of tears.

 

Her mother and father

Had fought all her life.

Her family was fully

Corroded with strife.

Her dad's awful mouth

Responded too much.

Shunned by their neighbours,

Her family was such.

 

She got down the stairs

Without being seen.

This fight was the biggest

There ever had been.

She went to the kitchen,

Called me on the phone,

But all she received

Was a cold, lonesome tone.

 

She wanted to leave,

To just get away.

Did she love her parents?

Well, maybe someday.

She was aware, though, that

She was not alone.

She could think things out

Better at my home.

 

When back in her room,

She packed up her case

With anger and sorrow

And fear on her face.

And still one house member

Was left in her head.

She took Rover with her

After he'd been fed.

 

She and her greyhound

Just walked out the door.

Her dad's fists were faster

Than ever before.

Her mom blocked his punches

As she always had,

But their boxing matches

Were never this bad.

             

She walked down the street,

Dry tears on her face;

She'd try to phone once,

Then on to my place.

She dialed up my number,

Sat next to her dog,

And heard my "Hello"

In the dark, misty fog.

 

I had just got home, and

Was going to call,

But she called me first,

And told me it all.

I said I'd come get her.

She said "Please don't try;

I'll walk off my sorrow

So that I won't cry."

 

I granted her wish,

But with much regret.

'Twas no use to argue

Once her mind was set.

I'm overprotective.

She's safe with her dog.

I gave all my fears

To the dark, misty fog.

 

I'll just have to wait

Until she arrives,

And then we can plan out

The rest of our lives.

Instead of that, I should have

Wished on a star;

For now here she lies,

So close, yet so far.

 

Her one wish was only

A real life to live.

How I wished that this

To her could I give.

And just wait a while,

Then here's where she'd be.

Our whole lives together

Is what I could see

 

She walked down the street

With much the same thought.

Only peace and love

Is what she had sought.

She knew she'd find these

If  she was with me,

Because no one other

To turn to had she.

 

She walked toward my house

Where she could be free

With thoughts of refuge

And sanctuary.

I stood on the street

In front of my home,

But still within hearing

Distance from the phone.

 

The fog was too thick

To look at my place.

Your hand could not be seen

In front of your face.

Someplace in the fog,

A man could not think.

He wrongly decided

To have one more drink.

 

As she walked the road

Leading to my home,

A man used his keys

Instead of the phone.

The man had blurred vision;

The fog didn't help.

Then soon screeching tires, and

A startled dog's yelp.

 

I saw Rover lying

At her cold, limp feet.

adrenaline flowed as

I found no heartbeat.

Then only two sounds could

Be heard in the fog:

the cry of a man, and

The howl of a dog.

 

Though the car was gone,

I found the back plate.

Was heaven helping me, 

Or was it just fate?

I called an ambulance

And stayed 'til they came.

I then went to find out

His address and name.

  

I went to the police

To find the culprit.

When I found the owner,

My teeth did I grit.

Fate and Irony-

Funny things they are.

The number belonged to

Her own father's car!

 

Her dad was arrested.

His defense did fail.

Was it really right to

Just throw him in jail?

He ruined his family

And slaughtered my life.

He murdered the one whom

Would have been me wife!

 

It was quite confirmed

His car was the tool

That rammed all of my love

Into a blood pool.

Her mom testified

As to where he'd gone:

To get back his daughter,

My only loved one.

  

My love and my life

Her dad rearranged;

Yet what's done is done,

And cannot be changed.

I'm here at the funeral

That they hold for her.

One other came for it;

It is her mother.

 

The hospital let her

Come and say good-bye.

Her wounds were quite brutal;

The bill will be high.

We look at each other

And both realize

That the same conviction

Is burned in our eyes.

 

I think of the dreams

That we were to share

And then I think of

Those who didn't care

Of anything other

Than finding a way

Of 'Alcoholizing'

Their troubles away.

  

I must find a way

To stop the abusers

Of this liquid drug

That should have no users.

I will not use it

And that is because

It murders our loved ones

And that's all it does.

 

As I close the lid

Of my love's new home,

I know life goes on,

And I'm not alone.

The mem'ries of my love;

These no one will mar.

Always in my heart,

So close, yet so far.

 

 

                        -Layson Williams, 1992

 

 

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